My Archetype

 

I aspire to be the woman on the Nine of Pentacles tarot card in my Albano-Waite deck. She represents my desire to be competent, self-sufficient, prosperous, graceful, poised, accomplished, and grateful for everything life gives me. This card comes up for me often in tarot readings, and I have come to think of it as a sign that I am moving in the right direction.

From 15 Minutes a Day to Tarot, by Mary M. Cowan:

Abundance in all things is the message of the Nine of Pentacles. Order — but not in stifling excess — accomplishment, and success. Wise management is sure to have contributed to this state of affairs.

A lady stands in her richly abundant garden holding her falcon, symbolic of the air element. A humble snail, the falcon’s opposite as it were, and symbolizing earth, crawls near her feet. She is as relaxed in the presence of one creature as another, accepting of nature’s gifts in whatever form they take. Hers is not a rigid, ordered garden, but a riot of luxurious growth.

In a reading, the presence of this card may indicate that your goals are, or soon will be, accomplished. This card is a description of what true inner and outer success feels like when you get there, and you’re on your way.

There’s another interesting description at learntarot.com.

I imagine myself as I want to be, walking my land, in view of my beautiful home, hanging out with my animals, breathing fresh air, sunshine warming my skin, wild, growing things all around me. This image fills me with gratitude because I am working toward these things and have no doubt they will be mine—are already mine.

About 9 months ago, I decided that one of the things that was blocking my prosperity was that I didn’t have a clear idea of what I wanted. I have a difficult time visualizing, so I started a project that would allow me to visualize, on my computer, the things I wanted to attract into my life. I called it “Attraction” and used Front Page to create it. It’s basically a website, but it lives on my computer rather than on the web.

I made a home page containing a statement that I intended to attract “these things” into my life, then created several categories of things, each with their own page. The categories are, in no particular order:

• Love
• House
• Land
• Friends
• Money
• 100 things I want to be or do or have

I think that’s it. Then I turned to my favorite tool, Google, in search of images that represented to me each of those things. In addition to these images, which provided the visualizations I was having difficulty creating in my mind, I wrote about each thing, sometimes in brief, other times in detail.

A few weeks later I fell in love. I have loved before, but I have never been “in love,” in a completely reciprocal partnership where two people want the same things out of life and work every step of the way to give and receive, to communicate, to be real partners to one another, to take care of each other, to love unconditionally…in other words, I have found my soulmate.

Recently I went back and looked at my Attraction project. All of the things I said I wanted are either present in my life or are in the process of happening. The love I wanted has manifested in a way that I could never have imagined. The house and land I wanted are something we both want, and we have begun looking for our home; the images I chose are startlingly similar to some of the places we’ve chosen as possible homes. Items from the “100 things” (incomplete) list (which I’d completely forgotten) have either happened or have come up in conversation as things that we want or plan to do.

I just wanted to take a moment to acknowledge these developments and share them here, and to express my gratitude for all the things life is giving me. I will come back soon and add a list of specific things I’m grateful for, as gratitude is something I’m concentrating on a lot right now.

Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion into clarity…. It turns problems into gifts, failures into success, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow.

–Melodie Beattie